I just wish I didn’t spent so much time liking you.
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The sad feeling I get when a couple in front of me starts kissing. It just makes me think that I’m such a nobody. The thought of it just makes me sad. I’m not in a hurry to do stuffs like that, but I can’t stop myself from being envious of what they have both. Just like what I saw earlier at Star City.
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It all started when we became seatmates last sophomore days. You became my friend, first guy friend I can joke along with. Then junior life came, we were still friends on the first two grading periods, but then I noticed you started to avoid me. I started hearing humors that someone in our class likes me. I started to avoid you also. Until the birthday of a friend of mine came, you were drunk that time, I was there upstairs with my friends when I heard you saying my name while singing. I don’t know if I just misheard you saying that or just because of the fact that you’re drunk. So I just left the thought of it behind. Recollection day came, we were asked to hug and say thanks to our friends, none of us made an attempt to hug or even thank each other. The next day, another friend of mine approached me and told me about that someone who liked me, I just listened to her. I was right by then by my suspicion. By that, I really tried to avoid you. You noticed that I was avoiding you also so maybe that’s why you asked if I knew about it already, I said yes. We had a long conversation, I remember I even told you that it’s not good to drink. Haha. I’m just being a good friend. So the next day, no approach with other. I don’t really know why I’m avoiding you. It’s just maybe I just think of you really as my friend and a brother but not as an admirer. Months came, Christmas is approaching, you gave me a ring and an apology letter as a gift, but I never wore it, I tried to wear it but it’s too loose for me to wear it. I also gave you a gift, a puppy, I noticed you never left it behind. The next day, it was your birthday, I didn’t came but I asked someone to bring my letter for you. JS Prom came, you asked me for a dance, I gave you one, though the situation’s pretty awkward. That was the last time I was beside you. I’m sorry. But I’m here as a friend, I can’t give you more than that.
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I don’t care if I don’t get notes. What I care about is that I’m able to share my thoughts here.
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